Be the one

Be the one that soothes my soul

Be the one that kindles the fire

Be the one that brings me to life

Be the one that loves all of me

Be the one that puts me first

Be the one that seeks me

Be the one that pursues me

Be the one that I pursue

Be the one I can't live without 

Be the one I love completely

Be the one I put first

Be the one I think of first 

Be the one I I live for

Be the one I take every breath for

Heavenly Father

Be the One

Comes in waves

Grief comes in waves. 

Healing seems to also

When you reach out finally

Express your sorrow for your actions 

Healing comes 

Freedom comes

Relief 

Time to move on 

Time to see what's next 

It's time

My sin is no longer mine. 

I asked forgiveness 

I received it

Jesus took it

God threw it as far as the east is from the west. 

He no longer remembers it. 

Why am I hanging onto it?

Why am I living condemned?

It's time to live forgiven

It's time to live free

What about me

Love unconditional

Acceptance 

Understanding 

Looking for it in places it can't be found

Only offered with conditions

Expectations 

Theirs not mine

Fit the mold

Do what they think is right

Don't even try to understand my reasons

my whys 

Still being broken 

Still being wounded 

Ones I'm supposed to trust

To count on

Can't be

Don't I even matter

My hurts

My heart

My mind

Move on

faith?

faith

trust

believe 

i do

i don't 

i want to

help my unbelief 

words earnestly spoken

heart's cry

help me trust You

help me have faith in You

help me to believe You

i want to

more than anything

want to trust You

with my life

with my heart

with my deepest desires

help my unbelief

The shadow

Divorce creates an emptiness... A void

There was someone there

Then there is not. 

Trying to find someone to fill the void. Who will fit? 

I try one or the other. 

No. 

No.

Try to ignore it. 

Try to pretty it up with things, friends.

Doesn't change it. 

Still an empty place. 

Like a shadow. 

Following me around. 

Never letting me forget. 

Alone. 

Empty.

Once Again

Once Again
          I tried to fill the empty space with something else.

Once Again
          I didn't look to You

Once Again
          I have tears and sadness

Once Again
          I see my need for You

Once Again
           I cry out for You to fill me

Once Again
           You remind me of Your Presence

Once Again
          You remind me of Your Love

Once Again
          You are there

Here we are.... Once Again