Sunday, January 31, 2016

Tenderly broken

There's a tenderness that comes after being broken. 

Sometimes you're taught rigid ideals and beliefs. Black and white. 

Brokenness breaks down the rigidness like a meat tenderizer softens tough meat. The process is painful and hard to experience, but after...

After you get it
After you understand
After you can sit in the pit with those that hurt and feel their pain with them

There's nothing that can connect people more than when you can understand their hurts, their pains. 

Connecting with someone's joy is easy. Nothing to it. 

Connecting with someone in pain means you feel it. You take on some of their pain. That's not easy. Who wants to do that?  

The broken. 

Because we know. 

We know what it feels like to be in such pain and turmoil and feel alone.  
No one should feel that way. 

So bring on your pain. 
Let me see it
Let me feel it
Let me bring you to the One who can heal it. 

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Connection

A like
A comment
A share

We all want connection

Like my mind
Comment on my heart 
Share my soul

Cheap connection 
Easy
Protected

You can't look in my eyes
See my heart
See my hurt
See my need

So I post
Giving a glimpse
Hoping someone sees just a little of what my eyes don't want to show 

Monday, January 18, 2016

Still

A flame kindled
A passion ignited
A love renewed 

He's showing me His love 
He's on the pursuit 

My heart is His desire
As is His is mine. 

No chase
No games
No need to pretend

He knows all of me 
Yet loves me still


Saturday, December 5, 2015

My Defining Moment

In Shelia Walsh's book "5 Minutes with Jesus", she talks about a woman that she ended up sitting next to on a plane.  A woman who was reading one of her books.  The woman talked about how she felt stuck.  Shelia asked her why and she told her it was a long story.  Don't we all have them?
Shelia told her she wanted to hear the long story, but give it to her in 5 minutes. In her book, she says, "I have found that this exercise effectively reveals what we consider the most significant moments in our lives."

I decided to do that.  What would be my story in 5 minutes?

Of course the main thing I thought of was my sin.  That was a defining moment in my life.  Changed my whole world.  That's what I was hanging on to.  What I did.  That's how I defined myself.

Today, I'm giving myself a new defining moment.  March 16, 2015.  (Look back at that post)


Day I decided to tell God, "I'm back!"  

It's been quite a journey since that moment, but today marks yet another defining moment.  
I'm no longer living in my old self.
I am redeemed
I am restored
I am greatly loved by God.  

My defining moments will no longer be what I did, but what God has done in my life.
It's about Him.  
His healing
His love
For His glory

Friday, December 4, 2015

Be the one

Be the one that soothes my soul
Be the one that kindles the fire
Be the one that brings me to life
Be the one that loves all of me
Be the one that puts me first
Be the one that seeks me
Be the one that pursues me

Be the one that I pursue
Be the one I can't live without 
Be the one I love completely
Be the one I put first
Be the one I think of first 
Be the one I I live for
Be the one I take every breath for

Heavenly Father
Be the One

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Comes in waves

Grief comes in waves. 
Healing seems to also

When you reach out finally
Express your sorrow for your actions 
Healing comes 

Freedom comes
Relief 

Time to move on 
Time to see what's next 

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

It's time

My sin is no longer mine. 

I asked forgiveness 
I received it

Jesus took it
God threw it as far as the east is from the west. 
He no longer remembers it. 

Why am I hanging onto it?
Why am I living condemned?

It's time to live forgiven
It's time to live free