Pieces of Me

Pieces of my heart
Given away

Laid down
Discarded
Unwanted
Rejected

Gathered them up
Tears in my eyes

What do I do now?

Pieces of my heart

Broken
Scattered

Take them to the King

It's all I have
I'm sorry
I wish it was whole
I wish it was perfect, unbroken

Oh my daughter
This is what I do

I take the pieces of you
Tenderly
Lovingly
Reverently

Mended
Cared for
Put back together
Beautifully
Perfectly
Wholly


Heart for my King

Anticipation

“Behold, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs forth; do you not perceive and know it and will you not give heed to it? I will even make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.”

Isaiah 43:19 AMP

I feel an anticipation 

An excitement 

God is up to something 

I don't know what or how or when

But it's coming

I've felt a shift inside me

Things coming to order

Not just inside but in my home 

Like I'm getting ready for something

Almost like getting ready to give birth

Nesting

I can't wait to see what God has planned 

It's so exciting that He is up to something 

I can almost see Him smiling down at me

Oh, My daughter 

Be patient 

You will love it

Tenderly broken

There's a tenderness that comes after being broken. 

Sometimes you're taught rigid ideals and beliefs. Black and white. 

Brokenness breaks down the rigidness like a meat tenderizer softens tough meat. The process is painful and hard to experience, but after...

After you get it

After you understand

After you can sit in the pit with those that hurt and feel their pain with them

There's nothing that can connect people more than when you can understand their hurts, their pains. 

Connecting with someone's joy is easy. Nothing to it. 

Connecting with someone in pain means you feel it. You take on some of their pain. That's not easy. Who wants to do that?  

The broken. 

Because we know. 

We know what it feels like to be in such pain and turmoil and feel alone.  

No one should feel that way. 

So bring on your pain. 

Let me see it

Let me feel it

Let me bring you to the One who can heal it. 

Connection

A like

A comment

A share

We all want connection

Like my mind

Comment on my heart 

Share my soul

Cheap connection 

Easy

Protected

You can't look in my eyes

See my heart

See my hurt

See my need

So I post

Giving a glimpse

Hoping someone sees just a little of what my eyes don't want to show 

Still

A flame kindled

A passion ignited

A love renewed 

He's showing me His love 

He's on the pursuit 

My heart is His desire

As is His is mine. 

No chase

No games

No need to pretend

He knows all of me 

Yet loves me still

My Defining Moment

In Shelia Walsh's book "5 Minutes with Jesus", she talks about a woman that she ended up sitting next to on a plane.  A woman who was reading one of her books.  The woman talked about how she felt stuck.  Shelia asked her why and she told her it was a long story.  Don't we all have them?

Shelia told her she wanted to hear the long story, but give it to her in 5 minutes. In her book, she says, "I have found that this exercise effectively reveals what we consider the most significant moments in our lives."

I decided to do that.  What would be my story in 5 minutes?

Of course the main thing I thought of was my sin.  That was a defining moment in my life.  Changed my whole world.  That's what I was hanging on to.  What I did.  That's how I defined myself.

Today, I'm giving myself a new defining moment.  March 16, 2015.  (Look back at that post)

Day I decided to tell God, "I'm back!"  

It's been quite a journey since that moment, but today marks yet another defining moment.  

I'm no longer living in my old self.

I am redeemed

I am restored

I am greatly loved by God.  

My defining moments will no longer be what I did, but what God has done in my life.

It's about Him.  

His healing

His love

For His glory

Be the one

Be the one that soothes my soul

Be the one that kindles the fire

Be the one that brings me to life

Be the one that loves all of me

Be the one that puts me first

Be the one that seeks me

Be the one that pursues me

Be the one that I pursue

Be the one I can't live without 

Be the one I love completely

Be the one I put first

Be the one I think of first 

Be the one I I live for

Be the one I take every breath for

Heavenly Father

Be the One