Waiting

Waiting

and

Waiting

You've shown me glimpses of what's to be but I'm tired of waiting...

Hope differed 

Heart is weak

Losing hope...

Trying to hold onto it

Slipping away 

This is not where I'm supposed to be

Or is it?

Preparation (I'm so ready)

Learning (I already know)

Be patient  (I have been)

So hard

In the waiting

He could have

He could have left me in the pit

but He pulled me out

He could left me in my pain

but He healed my hurts

He could have left me in my shame

but He made me righteous 

He could have let me walk away

but He kept coming after me

Praise God

He could have left me

but I was His

He never left my side

Whatever

Whatever, God 

I'm tired of worrying about it

So whatever 

I'm tired of crying over it

So whatever

I'm tired of fighting You over it

So whatever

Do whatever

Whatever pleases You

Whatever is Your will

Whatever is best for me

Whatever, God

Do whatever 

Can I be real

And you not judge me?

Can I be real 

And you not snub me?

Can I be real 

And you not tell about me?

This is me:

broken

sinner 

imperfect

But also

compassionate

caring

loving 

kind

all those pieces 

one woman

real

Emotions 

Riding the waves

Soaring in the clouds

Sinking in the depths

My anchor

Father, keep me steady

Help me walk on water

Eyes on You

No sinking

Take my hand

You're my anchor

Holding me

Keeping me focused 

Keep me steady

If I had not gone through my pain

I wouldn't know how completely He heals

If I hadn't cried those tears 

I wouldn't know He collects them in a bottle

If I hadn't had my heart broken

I wouldn't know how much He loves me

If I hadn't walked the hard roads

I wouldn't know He directs my paths

If I hadn't been in need

I wouldn't know how He provides

I wouldn't trade these lessons for an easier life. 

I have a life so free 

A life so full

See beyond

See beyond 

Beyond the surface

Beyond the physical

To the heart

The soul

So easy to take people at face value 

But never see the value beyond 

Take the time 

Feel the heart 

See the soul

Time never wasted