Sometimes the pain can come out of nowhere...

you thought you had dealt with it.
you thought you were through it.

then it hits you.

Nothing will ever be like it was.

I don't have someone by my side anymore.
I don't have my sons living with me anymore.
I don't have my house anymore.
I don't have the same friends anymore
I don't even have my dog anymore.

Divorce sucks.

a death of a dream
a death of ideals and beliefs

Loss...

I thought I'd been picking up the pieces and putting me back together.
Have I really?
Or have I been pushing them to the side, ignoring them.
Trying not to feel or deal with the pain of the loss of my life.

Father God,

Heal me.
Help me.
Give me strength
Put me back together
I feel so lost.
Lead me
Show me
Love me