Living up to my name

I'm having one of those days where the songs I listen to and the shows I watch have a theme. Beth Moore, Joyce Meyer and a couple songs on the radio as I was taking Devan to band all had the theme of healing.

If you know me even the least little bit, you know how my insecurity hinders me. Last month I have fought it and sometimes let it win. I don't know where it came from or when it started. I just know it's time for some victory. My name, Nicole, means "victory of the people". One time I had a pin that had my name on it that said "Victorious Heart" on it.

I have these moments of victory, but they don't last. I don't know if it's tied up in not being as consistent as I need to be in my walk with God or something that needs to be dealt with or maybe both...I don't know.

I just know that I'm tired of it. Is this to be a thorn in my side like Paul had? Is it something I'll have to deal with for the rest of my life or is this is a place where I can have victory?

I wish I could get away for a day or two, even a few hours and just sit with God.
I know that this is a good place to be, desperate for a touch, a word from God.

Please pray for me as I seek Him.

Healing Begins - Tenth Avenue North